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crystal-iceblossomxjackfrost4evr · 4 years ago

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@cheeseanonioncrisps

Okay...bish....u tore my damn soul out.

I was like totally vibing and feeling kind of bad cuz im grey ace (and thts just the sexual side and even then its so weird) and then u just tore me right open mentioning other types of ace and i adore uuuu for it!!! I thought it qas ralking abt uhh oh aspergers or autism at first cuz i saw a word similar and thwn was so excited to see its abt my orientation!!!

Im very happily Aro/Ace. I havw no wish of dating at all. Kissing is gross looking . Idl if im more of an under umbrella term for it tho as I ADORE relationships....of PTHER PPL. or like roleplaying especially my beautiful vharacters i make up!

I love .....well the ideaaa of sex???? Its so nice and beautiful and i qanna draw it and making posts abt it. Especially cuz i tend to call myself gay as theres not enough men x men or close to it out in the world comared to lesbians right now. And both are proud and beautiful.

But i do not want the sex. Id rather maybe be hands? But tht happened once out of a dare tht slowly escalated (with conswnt!) And whilr its great and the idea of doing it again is nice. I dont wannnnaaa?? And i dont caaaare????? I can do tht shiz myself????

Now QPP IS DEFINITELY A THING I WOULD LOVE and ive learned me and my brother are basically QPPs (brother from another mother type) nd hes amaziiiiiing. And i love the part of calling QPP crushes a "Squish" i think

Im a cuddler i love being physical if ppl let me. Cuddling js more addictive then anythimg sexual if u ask me and i pplan on getting piles of pillows and big stuffies and body pillows and other such things!

But .......i again....dont want my own romance. I dont rlllly want my own sex partner or at least not found one thts worth it.

Anyone i talk to says i havwnt found the right man (even with my one partner. Never had interest in his d and never jad interest in dating but i love being close friends with ppl)

Anyone i mention sex says ho2 can u say u like it if u never tried it. Qellll i liked hands down there only hands. I liked it plenty.. not interested in a D and i dont neeed to try it. I

Dont

Want

And evwn then if i hadnt been friends and tht dare we did didnt start. Lol ! Id be happily still uncaring of having hands! I 95-98% dont care and its tht last 2-5% tht makes me feel like grey ace fits me more

I feel attracted well enough and go on abt how hot guys are. (Genderfluid and idk how attractiin works there but since i prefer male and nb pronouns more i go with gay. And i like saying gay cuz its beautiful)

I constantly on my blog say how much i loooove the tmnt

How stunning tpm hiddlestone looks

Gonna post eventually headcanons like a friend of mine tht include nsfw and wanna do NSFW art thts more inclusive of other lgbts mostly m x m or other tho as ive seen sooo many w x w but u can be hard pressed for the opposite in not weird light and even more hardpressed for every other gender type (including various aces)

I love alastor being ace in hazvin hotel. I love him being with angel dust

I love the idea they had sex cuz its cute

I adore the idea alastor tries for angel cuz he actually likes him but it doesnt happen so they do according to one comic"fluffy tit cuddles" LMAO

Theres more then one kind of person

Ppl dont neeeeed sex or a bf to find it.

When i use to want a bf (or thought i wanted one from media) i wanted big sweaters i wanted to steaaal his big sweaters and his hoodies and other things

And i realized in middle school or q lil b4 i can just BUY THT SHIT the way i WANT so now i provide what i wanted myself and i get them in the styles i damn well like.

I didnt need a boyfriend to get the damn sweaters

And i dont need one to be happy

I dont need one for romance

I dont need one for anything sexual

And i wish ppl understood tht more <3

Hope i didnt tread any toes but thts how I personally am AroAce <3

Edit: also forgot to mention cuz i have bad memory and was vibing with the other parts and rereading OPs post to see if i missed anything i wanted to say but HOLY FUCK WAT WAS THT ABT RAPE THERAPY??? GOOD FUCKING LORD OH HELL NO O.O big big ass red NONO SIGN jeeez!!

Just let ppl vibe and live their best life

Also i dont want kids either. I was thinking adopting but ehhh........and thts a whole other thing ppl like to talk abt to

Vibe, Thrive and Live ur best Lives ya'll

(I just made tht up i am so using it on TShirts to sell now holy shit)

But yea like ugh.. let ppl be happy they way they show and feel theyre happiness. As long as its not hurting or a danger to others/themselves mental, physical, emotional or otherwise (a real danger not a percieved one!!!!) Then just.... let it go yall.

Everyone has the right to their own happy endings and their own happy fairytales no matter what it looks like <3

Y'know, whenever people want to talk about why aspec people 'count' as an oppressed identity, they tend to go for the big stuff like corrective rape and conversion therapy. And like, we should absolutely talk about that stuff. Obviously those things are terrible and important and we need to raise awareness and deal with them.

But I feel like people often gloss over how… quietly traumatising it is to grow up being told that there is only one way to be happy— and that everybody who doesn't conform to that norm is secretly miserable and just doesn't know it— and then to gradually realise that, for reasons that you cannot help, that is never going to happen for you.

You're not going to find a prince/princess and ride off into the sunset. Or if you do, then it's not going to look exactly the way it does in fairytales. You're not going to get a 'normal' relationship, because you are not 'normal', and everybody and everything around you keeps telling you that that's bad.

You see films where characters are presented as being financially stable, genuinely passionate about their work and surrounded by friends and family, but then spend the rest of the plot realising that the real thing they needed was a (romantic and sexual) partner, to make them 'complete'.

You absorb the idea that any relationships you have with allo people will ultimately be unfulfilling on their side, and that this will be your fault (even if you discussed things with your partner beforehand and they decided that they were a-okay with having those sorts of boundaries in a relationship) unless you deliberately force yourself into situations that you aren't comfortable with, so as to make uo for your 'defects'.

You grow up feeling lowkey gaslighted because all the adults in your life (even in LGBT+ spaces. In fact especially in LGBT+ spaces) are insisting that it's totally normal to not be attracted to anybody at your age, and then you go to school and everybody keeps pressuring you to name somebody you're attracted to because they can't imagine not being attracted to anybody at your age.

And then you get older and realise that one day you're going to be expected to leave home, and that one day all your friends are going to be expected to put aside other relationships and 'settle down' with a primary partner and you don't know what you're going to do after that because you straight up don't have a roadmap for what a 'happy ending' looks like for someone like you.

(And the LGBT+ community is little help, because so many people in there are more than happy to tell you that you're not oppressed at all. That you're like this because you don't want to have sex, and/or you don't want to have any relationships, that your orientation is some sort of choice you made— like not eating bananas— rather than an intrinsic part of you that a lot of us have at some point tried to wish away.)

Even if you're grey or demi, and do experience those feelings, you still have to deal with the fact that you're not experiencing them the 'normal' way and that that's going to effect your relationships and your ability to find one in the first place.

If you're aiming for lifelong singlehood (which is valid af) or looking for a qpp, then you're going to have to spend the rest of your life either letting people make wrong assumptions about your situation (at best that your relationship is of a different nature than it actually is, at worst that the life you've chosen is really just a consolation prize because you 'failed' at finding a romantic/sexual partner) or pulling out a powerpoint and several webpages every time you want to explain it.

This what being aspec looks like for most people, and it is constantly minimised as being unimportant and not worth fighting against— even in aspec spaces— because we've all on some level absorbed the idea that oppression is only worth fighting against if it's big, and dramatic, and immediately obvious. That all the little incidents of suffering that we experience on a daily basis are not enough to be worth bothering about.

I mean, who gives a shit if you feel broken, inherently toxic as a partner, and like you're going to be denied happiness because of your orientation? Shouldn't we all just shut up and thank our lucky stars we don't have to deal with all the stuff some of the other letters in the acronym have to put up with (leaving aside the fact that there are many aspec people who identify with more than one letter)?

So you know what? If you're aspec and you relate to anything I've said above (or can think of other things relating your your aspec-ness that I haven't mentioned) then this is me telling you now that it's enough. Even if we got rid of all the big stuff (which we're unlikely to do any time soon because— Shock! Horror!— the big stuff is actually connected to all the small stuff) we would still be unable to consider our fight 'over' because what you are experiencing is not 'basically okay' and something we should just be expected to 'put up with'.

No matter what anybody tells you, we have the right to demand more from life than this.

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